The fault lies with myself... but this feeling I really can't express.
But I'm really scared to lose you, really scared when you're with someone else.
but I'm also aware of my position, aware of who I am,
how can i have you ... how can i take you into my suffering ... what i want is your happiness but i am not willing if you are with someone else ... oh god what should i do? I don't understand about this feeling... will I be broken to pieces?